I didn’t cry as much as I thought I would when I put the braces on for the first time. No, the tears came the next day. Let me stop to say that I respect the hell out of physical therapists- yes, even when I think I hate them a little- because the good ones always know that you can do more than you think you can. Jared is one of the good ones. I watched while he built me an obstacle course from things from all over the room. I was sure that I was going to die, but his confidence in me never wavered. When I climbed onto the first box, I just stopped and stared. The end was far (feeling farther by the second) away, at the other end of the room. There was a zip-line thing that I could hold onto for support, but the floor was lava. Without my new ExoSyms, there would have been no way I would have ever be able to do this. But, since I had them, I had to wonder. I had to believe in myself. And, so, I did. For a good three minutes. Then, near the end, I was short in making a step from one box to the other and fell. Don’t worry, I landed on my feet. Jared had to catch me, and I practically gave myself a second concussion by smashing the heavy handle of the support into my face, but I landed on my feet. I had to stop and breathe. Because I could breathe. I looked around and noticed my racing heart. Then, I reminded myself that I was here, and I could breathe. Then, I stepped back up and tried again. And I finished that damn obstacle course. So, that’s when I really cried. Because I had just done That.
On my GoFund Me: ExoSym for Whit[EDITED FOR BLOG] I am shutting down my GoFundMe page, but it doesn’t end here. You can follow me on Instagram
@walking.take2 for future updates. I am posting videos of all of this craziness because I just cannot put it into words.
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Juliana Cope
6/19/2019 02:28:06 pm
All I can say is "YESSSS!!!!"
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Suzy Cashwell
6/22/2019 01:58:24 pm
I'm just smiling goofily right now.
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Leigh
6/24/2019 03:45:24 pm
I'm SO happy for you!
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